“Fleeting ephemeral. Pretty. But dreams don’t come true just because you dream them. It’s hard work that makes things happen. It’s hard work that creates change.”
I’ve been reading Shonda Rhimes’ Year of Yes for about a month now. It’s taking me awhile to get through it because I come upon a bit of truth and I have to put it down and let it marinate for a little while. Let it sink in.
Creativity levels have been low.
If I’m being honest, they have been low for quite some time.
I attribute this to a number of things.
It’s been nearly a year since I released Everything She Wanted and it still has only one review and that one ain’t good. In fact, it’s particularly bad. A BUYER BEWARE from a reader who read the books out of sequence. I have a lot of feelings about that and even considered contacting Amazon to have the review removed, but decided against it. It’s not worth it. I managed to forge through all the negative feelings that review wrought up, but they descended again when I finished Having It Both Ways.Writing The Lust Diaries has been a terrific learning experience. As I said before, I’ve never written a series and I think that shows in Book Two. For a time, I even considered abandoning
Writing The Lust Diaries has been a terrific learning experience. But as I’ve said before, I’ve never written a series and I think that shows in Book Two. For a time, I even considered abandoning The Lust Diaries, but I was talked off of that cliff quite recently by a fellow romance author of color. But that feeling has been a HUGE demotivator.
In an effort to shake off those feelings I’ve been focusing heavily on the business side of things. I’ve been listening to numerous podcasts and getting involved with chats and FB groups for other badass creative entrepreneurs and hoping that some of that badassness rubs off on me. And it did in a way. My side hustle is flourishing and I’m constantly coming up with new ideas for that side of things. But that sort of work doesn’t live in the same part of the brain. It’s creative, but engages more logic than writing creatively does and I think that has played a part as well.
Lastly…I stopped listening to music.
I can’t really pinpoint how or why this happened, but I think that I’ve been listening to so many podcasts that music has just been pushed to the back burner. Just this week I started listening to my playlist for The Lust Diaries again and it teased out the mini-synopsis that I’ve been working on for months, so I feel like that is pretty promising. The playlist is an eclectic mix of my music taste, but each artist/album speaks to the characters I’ve created and the world they live in. Springsteen’s Streets of Philadelphia and Born to Run have been on repeat. Heh.
I don’t know why I even started writing this blog post except maybe to let you all know that I’m still working, that I’m still in love with these characters. That I’m still a doer and not a dreamer.
If you’re interested, here is The Lust Diaries Playlist.